One word.

For an entire year.

Doesn’t God have more to teach me than just one word? Just one thing?

That’s what I thought at first. But then a word came to me. It was strong and purposeful. I even had plans for a new tattoo to celebrate my year of living this one word! But you know what they say about the plans of mice and men.

The more I leaned toward it, the more God kept putting another in my way. And yes, I do mean ‘in my way’ because I was pretty adamant I had found my one word. He definitely had other plans for me though. Everything I read from that point forward spoke of something other than what I had chosen. And as I looked back on my previous posts, I realized I had already begun to embrace this one word.

Trust.

Well, embrace may not really be the best way to describe what’s going on between trust and I. We are only 8 days in and I have already failed miserably. Many times. If the last 8 days are any indication this is going to be one hell of a year for me. I’m going to have to fight my natural inclination to control my relationships and situations in my life.

I’m going to have to risk being hurt.

The dictionary defines trust as the reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing. Well, that one has blown up in my face more times than I care to recount. In my experience, trusting people only leads to heartache.

Yet, God was still telling me to trust.

One of the Hebrew words for trust is b’tach. If you take a look at the Hebrew letters this is comprised of you get a picture of being on the inside (bet), surrounded (tet), and protected (chet). So, according to this word picture, trust could be defined as abiding and resting inside the goodness of God; protected, embraced and surrounded by His compassion and favor.

I had to sit with this one for a while. Not at all what I was expecting. Trust and protected in the same sentence. Embraced and surrounded by a Savior who is safe. A Savior who wants to take all the rest when I have given all I have. A Savior who, when my trust has been shattered like glass, is there to pick up all the pieces. Fashioning a mosaic with His own hand that now reflects beauty out of my brokenness. I can trust Him because His heart beats for me.

When I trust Him, I can be fearless.

When I trust Him, I can truly embrace all He has for me to learn.

When I trust Him, I can risk being hurt. I can love, because as the Lover of my soul, I can trust Him to take care of my heart.

 

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.”
Psalm 143:8

 

A Holy Experience

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    • Carol Vinson Reply

      Humbled that God could use me to help.

      Trust is a difficult thing sometimes. Prayers for your journey – may you always rely on Him . . .

      Carol

  1. Mary Reed Reply

    Carol, God is so good to have given you this word. The very essence of relationship with Him is nestled tightly in trust… And yes, when we trust, we are without fear! My word this year is 'fearless' and He's already stirring
    the soup! I look forward to seeing where He takes you this year on this trust-journey.
    I'm so glad you stopped by today. It was nice to meet you!
    Blessings to you ~ Mary

    • Carol Vinson Reply

      Nice to meet you also, Mary! The soup is definitely being stirred hear also!!! I have a feeling it is going to be a bumpy ride.

      Carol

  2. Mary Reply

    Oh, trust! Something God's been teaching me so, so much about in the past week – but He is so, so faithful! I know He will be as faithful in your efforts to trust Him as He has been in mine! Thank you for sharing all this!

    • Carol Vinson Reply

      Thank you, Mary for stopping by. He is indeed faithful and I am clinging to that. I am not enjoying my year of trust so far but I know He has better days ahead for me!

      Carol

  3. Alia Joy Reply

    Love this, Carol. My word last year was stripped and it was one of the hardest years of my life. I have a word picked out for this year but am still recovering from the wrap up post from last year.;)
    I love how trust is protection as well. As someone who struggles so much with this, I am looking forward to seeing how God works in your life this year.

    • Carol Vinson Reply

      This is already turning out to be one of the hardest things I have ever done! My next post will address some of those 'trust' issues for me.

      He is definitely doing a good thing . . .

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